Thursday morning, M & I got up and I started my new 2-day/week-morning-routine. He was an angel. I had showered the night before (just to be sure I didn't run out of time). I have heard from so many mommies that they have turned to nighttime showering to keep from rushing.
Anyway - M was in a great mood and had his morning bottle. After that, he went into his carseat on the dining room table while I made probably 100 trips from the kitchen to the living room. M looked like he was watching a tennis match, following me with his eyes while I was running back and forth. I felt relaxed, though.
We got loaded up and drove to Grammy's. I was talking to him the entire time, telling him why I was going back to work and promising him that he would have a great time at Grammy's. A few minutes later, I "loaded" Michael into Grammy's house and quickly went to my car before I started crying. No tears actually fell, but they were ready. What was bizarre was that I was also feeling Megan with me so much. My sister's presence comes to me so many times when I am really in need. I made it to school 30 minutes early and it felt good to be back. The list of tasks is hefty, but I feel confident that I will be able to handle it.
I resisted the temptation to call to check in on him - I just knew that he was doing great and in incredible hands. So, at 3:00pm, I pulled out of work and headed to see my little love. As I expected, he had a wonderful day and barely fussed at all. It felt great to know that we both had good days.
Now, it is spring break! :) I get another week with my boy before having to head back to work 2 days/week. It feels good to have the time and energy to be with Michael and also give of myself to other young people.
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